I was raised in the “stuff those feelings down, smile through it all” military/WASP/bad-ideas-from-the-50s-that-seemed-like-a-good-idea-at-the-time tradition, and so I find it REALLY difficult to express my feelings, especially the ones that might upset someone. In fact, I often don’t even acknowledge them to myself, which means that I tend to follow the tried-and-true simmer quietly until [...]
Posts Tagged ‘poly’
Love Timelines
Posted in Kyle, love, poly, tagged Kyle, love, poly on August 25, 2010 | 5 Comments »
Great BIs at Costco
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Becoming Roxy, Real life, Kyle, poly, love, Kissing girls, Bi, Casey, Coming Out on July 14, 2010 | 7 Comments »
I did it. I came out at Costco. This Saturday I went shopping and to lunch with my mom and told her (almost) everything. This was attempt number 4 at telling her I’m bi (that I can remember…I’m pretty sure there were probably more), but this time I had the benefit of having gone all [...]
The Conversation Continues…
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Bi, Casey, poly, The Ongoing Conversation on June 30, 2010 | 2 Comments »
Mom: So, what are you doing today? Me: Still working on the garage. Casey’ll be here on Saturday, and I want to have a place for her to sleep. Mom: *Surprised* Casey’s coming again? Me: *A bit flustered that I spoke without thinking* Er, yeah. Heart is one of her favorite bands, and they’re only [...]
Monday Rant – Stalker Edition
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Kyle, love, Monday Rant, poly, smut, Twitter on April 26, 2010 | 10 Comments »
My beloved trolls and stalkers helpful friends, By now you must have realized that I’m one seriously twisted fuck, so, for the love of all that is good and right with the world, please stop reading me now. Go read a book, go surf the net – hell, go surf for real cuz it’s fucking [...]
Necessary Tenderness
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Arron, BDSM, Eclipse, Educating Roxy, Kyle, Max, poly on March 2, 2010 | 6 Comments »
I started playing with my ex, Max, 3 years ago this month. With everything that’s happened since then, it seems like so much longer, because I’ve learned, and changed, so much. Back then, I had never played with anyone, and I didn’t know about places like fetlife and alt.com, and so I didn’t have anyone [...]
The Scarlet Letter
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Becoming Roxy, Fear, Kyle, Loneliness, love, poly, Sadness, Secrets, Truth on November 2, 2009 | 2 Comments »
A can stand for a lot of things. I have readers who believe it stands for adultery, and I’ll not argue the fact. Over 2 and a half years, I’ve run away from my life into the arms, and dungeons, of seven lovers who have offered me a place to hide…a way to distract myself…and, [...]
Yes Again
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Becoming Roxy, Pictures, Bois, Real life, Kyle, poly, Kissing girls, Poetry, Truth on October 11, 2009 | 3 Comments »
In honor of National Coming Out Day, I’d like to re-post one of my favorite poems. It came tumbling out of me after my first trip to visit Kyle – a single answer to so many questions that were swirling in my head. And, since it is National Coming Out Day…in case it wasn’t obvious [...]
Easy Cheesy
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Loneliness, M, poly, Real life on October 7, 2009 | 4 Comments »
I recently closed a chapter in my romantic life and my feelings have been all over the board. Having more than one love in my life doesn’t insulate me from all the same feelings over a breakup that everyone else feels. When I get sad I tend to cope with humor, and so, one night [...]
Hate Mail and Beauty
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged BDSM, Becoming Roxy, groupie, jealousy, poly, Real life, Secrets, Truth on September 18, 2009 | 20 Comments »
A reader in Portland, Oregon, had this to say on Tuesday: You’re a selfish, slutty cunt. Put your focus on your children, where it belongs, not your deviant desires. All of you poly player people are idiots. You want the cake and the frosting, without any concern for how your actions might affect others. By [...]
Monday Rant
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Becoming Roxy, Control, jealousy, Kyle, M, Monday Rant, Nate, poly, Real life, Secrets, Truth on August 31, 2009 | 16 Comments »
…wherein I shamelessly complain about anything and everything and swear a lot. Those with delicate constitutions would be advised to go check out today’s LOLCatz or something of a similarly inoffensive nature. 1) The man who hired me 14 years ago, a wonderful, beautiful man, passed away this week after a lingering illness. Not only [...]