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Posts Tagged ‘Sadness’
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Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Fear, Pain, Real life, Sadness, Secrets, Truth on February 26, 2010 | Enter your password to view comments
Forgiveness
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Becoming Roxy, Fear, Loneliness, Real life, Sadness, Truth on February 7, 2010 | 4 Comments »
The morning’s still quiet here. The cats are just waking up, and so the chorus of panic over when their next meal will come hasn’t started yet. The kids and my husband are asleep, and the sky is blue-grey with little yellow streaks of sun just peaking through. I’m still trying to get over bronchitis [...]
My Heaven
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged god, love, Sadness, Truth on February 2, 2010 | 3 Comments »
An old man was walking alongside God in the clouds.
God spoke, “So…er…Benedict was it?”
“Yes, Sir…Your Grace, God, Ma’am,” the man answered nervously. God shined with such brilliant, beautiful light, it was hard to make out God’s true shape.
“Benedict, my people tell me you claimed to be my messenger down on Earth. Is this true?”
The man [...]
Orienteering
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Becoming Roxy, Fear, Husband, Jesse, Kissing girls, Kyle, Loneliness, M, Nate, Real life, Sadness, Secrets, Truth, Val on December 4, 2009 | 2 Comments »
Just a few weeks remain of 2009, a year that’s brought me to my knees with pain, fear and ecstasy. I’m ready, eager to jump off into the unknown that will be 2010, eager to see where the maelstrom will drop me off, and eager to see how long the ride might last.
A little over [...]
In a Moment…
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Fear, Real life, Sadness, Secrets, Truth on November 28, 2009 | 2 Comments »
…the world changes. He goes from almost disturbingly sweet and generous to angry, at the end of his rope. In trying to open up to him, to tell him the truth he’s been begging out of me, I’ve said something that he misunderstood, and he offers no opportunity for explaining myself before he rushes headlong [...]
What I know
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Becoming Roxy, Fear, Real life, Sadness, Secrets, Truth on November 20, 2009 | 7 Comments »
I know for certain that
the devil you know can be far less scary than the possibility of being free from him, and parts of you will fight like hell to keep the world from changing, even for the better. I am trying to embrace the change, no matter how fearful I feel.
emotions are messy, complicated [...]
I’m sure I left my life around here somewhere…
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Real life, Sadness on November 14, 2009 | 13 Comments »
Yesterday morning I survived another pre-trial hearing. I had to dress up nicely and sit in a room with a bunch of other unhappy folks waiting for lawyers to agree on latin phrases so that we can wait another month and do it all again. This is why they can’t film Law & Order in [...]
Sometimes…
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Real life, Sadness on November 13, 2009 | 3 Comments »
…I get the impression that my life was intended for someone smarter and stronger who could handle it better, but we somehow got mixed up accidentally at birth.
And then I think,
“Dammit!
Right now, while I’m painfully muddling through their shitty ass life,
they’re probably eating MY ice cream!”
The Scarlet Letter
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Becoming Roxy, Fear, Kyle, Loneliness, love, poly, Sadness, Secrets, Truth on November 2, 2009 | 2 Comments »
A can stand for a lot of things.
I have readers who believe it stands for adultery, and I’ll not argue the fact. Over 2 and a half years, I’ve run away from my life into the arms, and dungeons, of seven lovers who have offered me a place to hide…a way to distract myself…and, finally, [...]
Falling Down
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Husband, Real life, Sadness, Secrets, Truth on October 21, 2009 | 6 Comments »
I’ve been asked a lot lately how I am. I’ve been told I look sick, or like I haven’t slept in too long, and it’s getting bad enough that people are actually stopping me to ask.
I have no idea what to say to them.
I have a house, 2.3 children (a little black humor – my [...]