I went to see my new therapist yesterday. She lives in Rockridge, one of my favorite parts of Berkeley and an area I know well from college, so I felt right at home when I arrived. She has a room in a old Victorian house, which is beautiful, but, sadly, lacks air conditioning…my peculiar chemistry [...]
Posts Tagged ‘Secrets’
Shrunk
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Bad tv analogies, Becoming Roxy, Kyle, Real life, Sadness, Secrets, Therapy, Truth on May 4, 2010 | 10 Comments »
Shrinking
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Becoming Roxy, Real life, Secrets on May 3, 2010 | 7 Comments »
Looking back at the way I’ve been writing for the past year, even I can see that I’ve been struggling with keeping my head above water. Over the course of time, my posts have been getting darker – not every one, of course, but there’s a definite trend. Back before this blog, I wrote daily [...]
Losing My Religion
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Becoming Roxy, Fear, Loneliness, Pagan, Pain, Real life, Secrets, Truth on April 5, 2010 | 3 Comments »
I was born into a family without religion, which is to say that my family originally had too much religion and my parents decided to end the fighting it caused by getting rid of it entirely. In my grandparents’ era, both sides had split into bitter feuds over religion and the family was left fractured [...]
Gone Fishin*
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Loneliness, love, Pain, Pictures, Real life, Sadness, Secrets on March 31, 2010 | 1 Comment »
Sometimes when things get rough, you just gotta cry uncle. I’m gonna be taking a vacation from my online life – maybe a day, maybe a week – to give me some time to get my head screwed on straight (gayly forward.) Be seeing you… (* I actually think fishing is barbaric, so it would [...]
Protected: The Truth
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Real life, Secrets, Truth on March 17, 2010 | Enter your password to view comments.
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Protected Posts
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Real life, Secrets, Truth on March 17, 2010 | Comments Off
2009 was a very difficult year for me, and the issues I faced then are still dogging me now. I’m finding it really helps to write out, and post, my fears, frustrations, and hopes, but I’m wary of making it all public because of the small handful of readers who don’t have my best interests [...]
Bee Charming
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Real life, love, Kissing girls, Truth, Secrets, Loneliness, Sadness, Bliss, Bi on March 15, 2010 | 3 Comments »
I remember seeing Fried Green Tomatoes for the first time in the early 90s. I can’t remember if it was at a theater, or on video, but I do remember falling in love. I had had a crush on Mary Stuart Masterson for just about ever, and she was her strong, beautiful, somewhat sullen self [...]
Brave Monday
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Bliss, Courage, Fear, Kyle, love, Real life, Secrets, Truth on March 9, 2010 | 7 Comments »
Every relationship is inherently dangerous. Every hug, every kiss, every promise brings us closer to another human being, forcing us to open up and let a little light in, exposing the needy, small, ugly bits we prefer to keep hidden away. A polyamorous relationship is even more dangerous, with prohibitions on wanting too much, and, [...]
Protected: Crash
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Fear, Pain, Real life, Sadness, Secrets, Truth on February 26, 2010 | Enter your password to view comments.
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To Be a Man
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Beauty, Butch, Gender, Kyle, Secrets, Truth on December 18, 2009 | 4 Comments »
Kyle and I get one 30-minute phone call a day, which usually stretches a bit longer. We text. We chat. We send each other pictures. We cam. Most Friday nights we talk on the phone after he goes out, when the tequila’s loosened his spine and put the swagger in his voice. I write poetry [...]