Every relationship is inherently dangerous. Every hug, every kiss, every promise brings us closer to another human being, forcing us to open up and let a little light in, exposing the needy, small, ugly bits we prefer to keep hidden away. A polyamorous relationship is even more dangerous, with prohibitions on wanting too much, and, [...]
Posts Tagged ‘Secrets’
Brave Monday
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Bliss, Courage, Fear, Kyle, love, Real life, Secrets, Truth on March 9, 2010 | 1 Comment »
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Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Fear, Pain, Real life, Sadness, Secrets, Truth on February 26, 2010 | Enter your password to view comments
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To Be a Man
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Beauty, Butch, Gender, Kyle, Secrets, Truth on December 18, 2009 | 4 Comments »
Kyle and I get one 30-minute phone call a day, which usually stretches a bit longer. We text. We chat. We send each other pictures. We cam. Most Friday nights we talk on the phone after he goes out, when the tequila’s loosened his spine and put the swagger in his [...]
What I Want
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged BDSM, Becoming Roxy, Fantasy, Fear, Kissing girls, Knives, love, Secrets, Switch, Truth on December 13, 2009 | 20 Comments »
Hit me.
Flog me, shock me, burn me. Scratch long, teasing lines in red with nails that want more. Make my skin quiver and dance beneath your touch. Lick me, kiss me, surprise me. Find my buttons and push them hard.
Bite me. Bite me hard.
Don’t
stop.
Shove me past my limits, love my strength. See me as i [...]
The Way It Is
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Becoming Roxy, Fear, Husband, Real life, Secrets, Truth on December 11, 2009 | 3 Comments »
The thing of it is, it’s never what you imagine it’ll be. It’s not like tv, or movies, or even that friend of a friend you heard about from your sister-in-law.
It’s far worse.
The crying just. Never. Fucking. Stops. It’s like I’m made of tears some days. Trying to change the way my brain works halfway [...]
Orienteering
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Becoming Roxy, Fear, Husband, Jesse, Kissing girls, Kyle, Loneliness, M, Nate, Real life, Sadness, Secrets, Truth, Val on December 4, 2009 | 2 Comments »
Just a few weeks remain of 2009, a year that’s brought me to my knees with pain, fear and ecstasy. I’m ready, eager to jump off into the unknown that will be 2010, eager to see where the maelstrom will drop me off, and eager to see how long the ride might last.
A little over [...]
The Naked Truth
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Beauty, Becoming Roxy, Fear, Kissing girls, Kyle, Secrets, Truth on December 1, 2009 | 35 Comments »
Last night, Kyle wrote a love letter for me in the form of a D/s scene, which he posted here this morning. When he showed it to me last night, I was struck by how real it was. He didn’t just write a pretty story we could act out, he worked hard to delicately lay [...]
In a Moment…
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Fear, Real life, Sadness, Secrets, Truth on November 28, 2009 | 2 Comments »
…the world changes. He goes from almost disturbingly sweet and generous to angry, at the end of his rope. In trying to open up to him, to tell him the truth he’s been begging out of me, I’ve said something that he misunderstood, and he offers no opportunity for explaining myself before he rushes headlong [...]
The Case for Compassion
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Fear, Secrets, Truth on November 24, 2009 | 7 Comments »
Let me be very clear. Outside of a carefully-constructed BDSM scene,
It is never acceptable to hit someone.
It is never acceptable to yell at them in anger.
It is never acceptable to call someone names or belittle them.
It is never acceptable to control someone with fear and intimidation.
It is never acceptable to tell someone they deserve their [...]
What I know
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Becoming Roxy, Fear, Real life, Sadness, Secrets, Truth on November 20, 2009 | 7 Comments »
I know for certain that
the devil you know can be far less scary than the possibility of being free from him, and parts of you will fight like hell to keep the world from changing, even for the better. I am trying to embrace the change, no matter how fearful I feel.
emotions are messy, complicated [...]
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